Blood Test

Had bloodwork done today per the request of my doctor. Negative.
Sooo.... Next step is diet, and then in January or February, we will be doing the IUI.

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Negative. What the hell...

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

No period. And I am testing in the morning. Not sure what I think of all of this right now. I want to be pregnant, but then again I want to start my diet and workout plan. Uhg.... Why does all of this have to be so complicated...

In Limbo

AF is still no where to be seen. I spoke with my OB yesterday and he said that if I don't have it by next week, then he is going to order a blood pregnancy test and if that is negative, then put me on Provera to jump start my cycle. I told him that we wanted to do the IUI in December or January (depending on my cycles) and he said he is excited to try that with me. Still not sure how I feel about that, but as long as I am not pregnant and my period comes, I am looking forward to starting my diet and workout routine! :-)

Update

Well, there really is nothing new going on. Still no AF and still no positive on the stick. I am calling my dr today and I am going to see what he thinks...

So True

This is exactly how I feel. And can completely explain what I can't...

http://www.fertilityauthority.com/blogger/cgd/2011/10/12/birth-story-told-my-infertile-perspective

Test Time

Took a test this morning and it was negative. Can't something just go right in this area of my life? Either I am pregnant and get positive tests or I'm not pregnant and my fucking period comes on time! I am so aggravated over this whole situation!!! >P

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Last night Alex and I had a little bit of an argument. It was really petty, and something that could have been easily avoided if we were "perfect" (because you know, there are perfect couples everywhere who NEVER fight! Psftt!! Get off you fucking high horses.) But the best part of arguments is the make-up sex. Don't get me wrong, Alex and I have an AMAZING sex life (4-7 times a week is usual for us). But this time it was different. It was honestly the best sex we have ever had. We were so in-tune to each other, and it was slow, meaningful, and sensual. I have never felt so close and so deeply in love, and loved by him. It was a good hour of steamy, romantic, intimate love making session... I don't know how else to describe it except mind blowingly amazing! ♥

I'm... Late..?

Well, if I ovulated on CD 19 or 20 when I got the positive OPK, then I should have gotten AF today. I am trying my hardest not to get excited, but I am planning on taking a test in the morning...

Breathe....

Excitement In the Air

I was thinking about testing this morning after I felt nauseous, but decided it would be best to just wait it out until next Wednesday.

Even if I'm not pregnant this cycle, I am very excited for what is to come! If I'm not pregnant, I am starting a gym membership and diet plan to loose some weight. Then we are going to do IUI with oral stimulants or injections in December or January :-)

Also, I am excited for holidays! Halloween is coming up soon, then it's Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years! Hoping this year's holidays wont be as depressing (even though there is some pregnant people in the family and I know it is going to be "all about them.") I am maybe going to avoid those situations so I don't get blue when it is a happy time of year :-)

New Tattoo

I needed a distraction from my cycle, so I started obsessing about tattoos. I got done with work early today and went and had it done. I love it <3

Yes it is a quote from Twilight. No that isn't the reason I got it. lol :)

Friendship

I want to take a moment and say thank you to  someone very important to me.

He is the best friend any girl could ever ask for. He has always put up with my craziness, drama and all my crap. He is caring and understanding, and I am very grateful to be lucky enough to have him in my life.

Thank you for loving me and being my friend <3

Drowning in Disappointment

I spoke with my doctor about doing an IUI, and me being me, I ask a LOT of questions. One of them was the success rate.... He said it is 15%. So would it be worth even trying...? Or would it be worth it to just save the money and put it towards IVF..? I don't know what to do anymore...