Thursday, March 31, 2011

Falling In Love Again

With photography that is!! (But I still love my hubby too ;) hahaha!!) Chicago was AMAZING! I learned so much and I can't wait to put the knowledge to the test! Here are my favorite pictures from the workshop:









It was really a great time! I can't believe how much we learned and the amazing pictures we were able to produce there! Now that we are back home, we are going to be able to produce amazing pictures here as well!!

In other news, AF is due Friday, April Fool's Day. I bet you anything that she will show up on time to fool me. Haha! Ah well.. We shall see :)

Thanks for reading!!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Happy 23rd Birthday!

I want to wish my amazing husband a Happy Birthday!


I love you Alex Lee!!!!!!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Chicago!

I can't wait! I will be leaving Tuesday morning for Chicago! It's going to be an amazing experience and I am so grateful that I am able to go!

As for other things, I am on CD 17. I haven't even thought about getting pregnant since I took the last OPK test (well, until now). We have just been busy and hanging out with friends and just having fun. I am hoping that just trying to ignore everything will help. And I am not going to test when my period is only a day late. Screw it! I am going to not test until at least a week or two late :) Hope that will help with my obsessiveness. Haha!

Friday, March 18, 2011

[[Four Days]]

I can't wait until Tuesday! I will be heading to Chicago for a photography workshop! Its a very expensive workshop ($1300 per person), but my amazing boss is covering everything for me!

On a side note, I tested again Wednesday night and although the test was not positive, it was still pretty dark. I spoke with my doctor about it and she said it could have been a number of things; like a bad kit, I had a surge and didn't ovulate, I had a surge but didn't actually ovulate until the second surge, or I ovulated twice. Who knows! I hate how complex this system is...

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Ovulation Tests

I tested last night and tonight and have gotten two positive ovulation tests... Today is CD13. I am not sure what to think because last month I had the one positive and that was that. Not this time around I had a positive the first cycle day I tested and today.


This was the one from tonight, but last night's looked the same. Any ideas or suggestions...?

Phelix Vincent

Here he is!! :)

Monday, March 14, 2011

New Nephew

I just got a text from my brother letting me know that they are heading to the hospital to have my little nephew! I want to know what they are naming him but they have kept it a secret! They already have Layla Madison and Brycen Charles. If they end up stealing one of the names Alex and I have picked out I am going to cry. Haha...

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Very Sad Day

I would have been due today. It sucks.

:(

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Dinner with Family

My bosses got amazing news today!! They have been chosen for adoption! The baby is due the end of June and they will be meeting with the birthmom Friday morning and they will get to find out what she is having! I am so excited for them!!!
Tonight after my internship Alex and I went to visit my parents. It was really nice to just sit and have dinner (which they made spaghetti and meat balls which was amazing!) and then watch tv. It helped to take our minds off of recent things.

R.I.P. Aaron Robert Anderson ♥

Six years ago today Alex's brother was killed in a car accident.

Ever since Alex and I started dating (eight months after the accident), I have wished that I had the opportunity to know his brother. All the stories that his family tell and all of their fun memories. I always wonder if he would have liked me (Alex says he would have), or what life would be like today if he was still around. Would we have bought this house? Would he come to visit a lot? Would we do game nights together? I have never experienced this feeling of longing that will never be fulfilled. Sometimes I have to catch myself because I will just randomly think that Alex is an only child. I know that this will be something that I will have to eventually get used to because there is no time machine.

Hopefully things will get better and Alex and I will be able to talk about him, and I will be able to say that I knew him through Alex

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Wonderful Weekend

Alex and I have had two date nights in a row :) Last night we went out to dinner at Applebee's and then went and saw the new movie Rango. Tonight we went out out to dinner at our favorite spot, Great Wall, and then went to see Just Go With It. After that we went out and had a drink at the Livery (aka- Cowtown Saloon) downtown. And we didn't feel like going home so we drove around town and street raced this one guy. It was so funny! And we won :) Feels good to have fun like we used to in high school.

I feel so lucky to have such an amazing husband. He is sensitive, caring, and a hopeless romantic. I am very blessed to have him in my life. He has helped me through some rough times and without him, I don't know where I would be!!!

Friday, March 4, 2011

Ha!

A friend of mine made my day today! She pointed out to me that if Scott Walker passes the Budget Bill (which he will if the stupid democrats come back!) then my bitchy little friend (from yesterday's episode), will NOT be getting any money from the government! The Bill cuts all of that out! HELL YES!!!! My taxes wont be supporting her ass any time soon! I knew I was totally for this Bill :) So it better get passed SOOOONNN!!!

Sorry, just had to make my point ;)

Really? It Had to be Today...

Great. To make me feel even worse, AF decided to show up this morning. Why not?! I already feel like shit because apparently "I can't get pregnant."

Sorry guys... I am a little under the weather right now, but I will hopefully be better in a few days. Thank you for putting up with my wild emotions.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Just... Wow..

I will start with a little back story:

My friend and I have known each other for eight years. She was one of my bridesmaids and we have always been close. I know she didn't always make very good choices, but I always hoped she would change. Before she started dating hubby's cousin, her longest relationship was a month. And then she would always end up cheating and they would break up and she would go sleep around with who ever she could. Then she was kicked out of her house in October, so Alex and I decided she could live with us, but only if she made some positive changes in her life. She told me she wanted to change and she didn't want to be sleeping around with guys. I called her mom to figure out why she was kicked out and it was because she was treating her mom like trash. So I guess it was only a matter of time until the vicious cycle came around to us...

She was basically engaged (I say that because he was planning on asking her to marry him this month) to my husband's cousin (they had started dating in June 2010. They had wanted to date each other for almost two years, but it always seemed that one or the other had a boyfriend/girlfriend so it didn't work out until this past year.). She cheated on him the end of January; then the begining of February dumped him because "she wasn't ready to grow up." Two days later, she was with the other guy (whom she had cheated with) and moved out of our house into his mom's (while he lived with foster parents in another town). Then after she moved out (ok, well I kicked her ass out), she tried telling me that her and Alex "did stuff." I KNOW that he would NEVER cheat on me; especially with her (I know this because he is extremely racist and she is mexican. NO OFFENSE to anyone, but that's just how my husband is.). So its been a whole messed up thing and we haven't talked in a month. I talked with her mom a few times. and she had talked to my friend's new boyfriend's foster mom. I guess the foster mom over heard him talking with my friend saying he was going to drop out of school when he turned eighteen and he was telling her that if she got pregnant, the government would give her more money. Great...

Well my so called "friend" was a bitch to me today... She texted me this morning to tell me she was pregnant (I guess I should have known it was coming). I asked her what she was going to do and she said she was going to keep it. Ok, fine, whatever. So I stated that neither of them had jobs, vehicles, or any way of being able to care for a baby. Not to mention that from birth to eighteen years will cost about $250k. And she said I didn't have to be a bitch about it. I said that I was just giving her facts. She then preceded to tell me that if I didn't have anything positive to say, then don't say anything at all. I told her life isn't all positive, children are hard and will be life changing, they are a FOREVER choice. She then told me "at least I can get pregnant." Wow... BOMBSHELL... My heart skipped a beat, and I sunk to a new low. How could a "friend" that I have known for eight years; a "friend" who was a bride's maid; someone who I trusted and loved like my sister, say something like that to me...?

Apparently she got the Depo shot on February 8th (learning this from her mother. Her sister had actually taken her to Planned Parenthood to get it). So I don't know how exactly this happened. I am just hurt beyond words. I have decided to give up on her. I feel sorry for the kid because it is going to be raised up in a shitty home. She is going to be just like her dead beat boyfriend's mom; living off the government. She tried to get pregnant on purpose just so she could get more money from the government. Its ridiculous... And so god damn FRUSTRATING!

Alex's cousin had done so much for her too! His mom paid for her to go get her compass test so she could go to college. And he was going to buy her a car when her car broke down really bad one month. Then she throws it all away for some deadbeat who dropped out of school and they are living with his MOM (who doesn't do anything [also lives off the government and she doesn't even have a CAR!!] and has had several children taken away from her.). 

And for her to text me out of the blue and tell me she is pregnant and then be a total bitch to me was completely uncalled for.

I need a good stiff drink. But I can't because AF still isn't here and I don't know if I am pregnant or not. Dang...

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Just as I Figured

Negative... Bummer...

The good news is, I have no more tests in the house so I wont be temped to test anymore.