New Tattoo

I needed a distraction from my cycle, so I started obsessing about tattoos. I got done with work early today and went and had it done. I love it <3

Yes it is a quote from Twilight. No that isn't the reason I got it. lol :)

Friendship

I want to take a moment and say thank you to  someone very important to me.

He is the best friend any girl could ever ask for. He has always put up with my craziness, drama and all my crap. He is caring and understanding, and I am very grateful to be lucky enough to have him in my life.

Thank you for loving me and being my friend <3

Drowning in Disappointment

I spoke with my doctor about doing an IUI, and me being me, I ask a LOT of questions. One of them was the success rate.... He said it is 15%. So would it be worth even trying...? Or would it be worth it to just save the money and put it towards IVF..? I don't know what to do anymore...

Cycle Day 19

Waiting... Waiting... Waiting... That is all I seem to be doing now days. Alex and I have decided that if this cycle doesn't work, we are going to stop trying for a few months and I will be starting a diet plan and hitting the gym to loose some weight. Then late this winter/early spring we are going to do IUI. We both feel this is a necessary step and we are looking forward to it. I just can't grasp that after almost three years we have nothing to show for all the trying... It sucks. Plain and simple. There is nothing anyone can say to make you feel better, there is nothing that anyone can do to make it ok. The only way to hold onto the little sanity I have left is to work or surf the internet. Even then it doesn't always combat the thoughts of babies running through my head. Uhg..

Happy Birthday! (to me. lol)

Its a cold and drizzily day here for my birthday. But that's ok :-) I am officially 22. That is so crazy! Nothing to look forward to now until 25, and then insurance rates drop! Woohoo! ;-) I hope everyone has a fantastic Friday!!

Birthday Parties

I just got home from spending time with my niece and nephews for their combined birthday party. Laylla is 4, Brycen will be 3 in December, and Phelix will be one in March.

I have a lot on my mind right now, so I may or may not be posting as often for a little while. Everything is ok, I am just trying to figure out what will be the best for Alex and I to do next... Thank you for your understanding.

Where Does Time Go..?

I am going to be 22 in a week. I always thought I would have been a mom at 19. Then when I hit 19, I told myself, well I will definitely have one by 21. Well that has come and gone too. I have given up on trying to predict when I will have a baby, because obviously my body hates me. :-P

I have been out of high school 5 years next May.. Alex and I have been together for six years in January, and four years married in April. It all seems so surreal... I feel like life is passing me by...