I have refused to post for a while because I honestly have nothing positive to post... But here is an update on what all is going on.
I haven't had AF since November, until she showed up today. Yet another disappointing cycle...
We had a pretty good trip in South Carolina. Things were a little rocky when we came home... Currently we are taking things day by day.
I started a gym membership this past Friday. Hoping that working out will help with my fertility and maybe give us a boost. Plus I will be able to workout my frustrations and I will look better and feel better :-)
We have finally decided that we are going to do the IUI, just haven't decided when. I would rather do it this cycle, but he is saying we should wait until summer.
It's officially been three years since we started trying. I never thought I would be in this position... I'm trying to keep hope and be positive, but to be honest, I am having the feelings of giving up. It's almost to the point of I don't even want kids... My heart breaks.... I even get sick to my stomach thinking that I should be a mother by now. I'm frustrated, irate, hurt, depressed, indifferent, and calm depending on the day.
I wish people understood... I try talking to friends, and they just don't get it. They usually roll their eyes at me and change the subject... They don't understand the want and need I feel to be a mom. They don't understand how I feel only half a woman because I cannot conceive after trying for so long, when they only have to try for a month...
I need some reassurance... I need some inspiration... I need hope...
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