Thursday, June 28, 2012

Confession

As some of you know, I am a photographer and work with a well known company in my area. I LOVE photography with all my heart! I have always wanted a successful business of my own. However, after the events of tax time this year, and another $400 scare I got a couple of days ago, I've realized that working with a company, on their payroll, is better than owning my own. Also, I take amazing and beautiful pictures (I may be a little bias ;-) lol) but I can't pose worth poop!!! I have always had an immense fear of being in front of people giving speeches, and that in turn has developed into telling peers what to do. I am great at telling our high school senior clients what I want them to do, but clients my age or older, I clam up :-/ I've read posing material, I've tried doing it all on my own, but it's still hard for me because I am shy. Don't get me wrong, I can do it, but it takes me longer to be able to explain what I want them to do, and I lack the confidence needed to keep them confident that they look good. It's just a big struggle....one which I hope I will get over eventually!!

1 comment:

  1. I totally understand the fear, not that I am a photographer or do anything as cool, but I get it.
    For now with the baby and all the payroll really seems like the best option, eventually when you are ready... I'm sure you will conquer that fear.

    I am working on some projects but I am so fearful of putting it out there, I don't think I'll ever even bring it up on my blog, but I do understand that fear of failure part of it.

    For now, you enjoy that little one growing =)

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