Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Internal Struggle... *sigh*

This being our first baby that we have gotten this far, I want to do everything right because this could be the only chance we get... I want to do an all natural water birth, breastfeed, cloth diaper, baby wear, organic foods (mostly root veggies, as those are the most important to buy organic of), and selective/delayed shots...

Which brings me to the struggle I am having right now..... To find out the gender, or not to.

I have always thought that I wanted to find out no matter what; up to today. I have been told that it is a way more rewarding experience to find out after laboring and pushing, than if you already know. I want to make everything special; hell I am even looking for a birth photographer to be there! My biggest problem is that I am a planner.... I feel like I HAVE to know; like it is literally going to strangle me if I don't know.
Sooooo......what I was thinking was to have the ultrasound tech write the gender in an envelope, and we could give that to my parents or Alex's parents, and they could spread the word to family and let them know not to tell me. If Alex wants to know, fine, but I kind of don't. I figured this would help with my OCD-ness of being a planner. And I wouldn't have a baby shower until after the baby is born. This way people can buy the right gender things (so I don't have an abundance of gay yellows...... [and I'm already stocked up on so much green, I don't want anymore!]) and I can still keep my sanity.

Thoughts or ideas would be greatly appreciated on this one!!!!

1 comment:

  1. I wish I could say that I've had the strength to be Team Green, but I have to admit to peeking. What I can say is that when my son was born, the only thing I could focus on was the beautiful baby on my chest. I didn't think about all the things I *should* have done differently or "this moment could have been better if...". The moment was perfect because my baby was finally in my arms. I would eventually like to stay Team Green until delivery, but I also like calling the baby by name in the meantime ;)